Wedding bands...

So... bought the wedding bands the other day. Mine is an 18c White Gold and and his is a thick Palladium plain band. We are going to get them engraved with the date in roman numerals. It would look kinda like;

XXVI VI MMXI

I cant begin to describe how excited I am getting. This time next year I'll me a married woman!

Booked ♥

I have an official wedding date, June 26th 2011.
This makes me so happy. On that day I will actually be Mrs Jones!!

I chose Llyndir Hall in the end. It was perfect, it was the only place I could actually visualise myself getting married! It will be an outside ceremony (Yay!!) and then we have the Greek gardens, our own conservatory and the reception hall (which is huge) all to ourselves. I have also chose the colours, Fuchsia and Orange. Sounds wild, but they look great together. My soon-to-be and I are choosing all the little details, like a old retro-style sweet stand and tables names as constellations which personalises it as perfectly us. I love it already so much. I have left choosing a dress until after my holiday in California. I can't wait to introduce my dad to his future son-in-law it will be amazing! I cant wait, I cant wait, I cant wait!!!

Yes, a thousand times yes

So... He proposed.
He got the ring a week earlier than expected so I had no idea, which was nice. He suggested going for a walk up this mountain near where we live. Its a cute little mountain, and because I like going for walks I obliged. I did notice that he rushed me up to the top, and that every so often his hand went into his pocket, seemingly checking something, but I wasn't 100% sure he would propose so I let it go and thought nothing of it. Then at the top with the spectacular views he pulled me close, got down on one knee and asked in the cutest way ever, "Will you marry me?" I of course, said yes and he slipped the sparkling new ring onto my finger. So happy, so excited, so in love. I have the best fiancee ever! ♥

Crazy,.. I told you, see even the Doctor agrees!

Don't let anyone tell you planning a wedding isn't stressful. For the first time in my life I have had to go see the Doctor regarding my mental state! I have been having panic attacks you see, not good and anxiety attacks along with a load of other silly sounding stuff. Like me a lot of people think of stress as a lazy Get-Out-Of-Jail free card. People say " Oh I'm so stressed" and it means nothing. Well I am. Doctor prescribed medication and I have to go see a psychotherapist/ counsellor thingy. I'm OK with the remedy, but the actual anxiety is scary. I have never been this close to breaking point before. Sometimes I cant breathe and I shake...Well vibrate is closer to what its like. I cant think straight and my head hurts, I give myself headaches. I am breaking out in stressma and I just feel muddy and confused and tight and angry ALL the time. Its horrid. And when did this all come about...? Sine planning the wedding. It's making me literally ill, I could call it off...If I didn't want to get married so much. Health or happiness...??? Hmmmm

Hotel, Hotel, Holiday inn...

So I have been going around looking at venues. Im going to get married in a country hotel!! Its weird, it makes me feel overwhelmed, everything is happening so fast. But if I forget about that then I get to enjoy myself. I love looking at all the weddings stuffs. I took my Mums and Mum-in-law to be with me when we went to the first place. I loved it, it has this amazing spa there and the rooms were modern. Some things I was picky abaout, they had no burbundy seat covers and the carpet isle whatever, didn't cover the whole floor. But I really liked it, overall 8/10.The second place we went to looked amazing on the website, but when we got there I just felt like I was a pauper pretending to be a prince. Everytyhing was so posh and old fashioned. The rooms looked like something I would find in my nans house. Amd how could I ever have sex in my nans house? It was expensive too and wehilst the food was amazing it was a no from me. They didn't even allow a disco for the evening reception! 2/10

The third place I went to see was beautiful. You could get married outside and the reception room was all french windows. I like this place best I think so far. The outside ceremont sold it to me! I thought I wouldn't like it at all, I was really ill when I got there and had the poshest bout of diorrhea in my life. But I loved it, I long for it. 9/10

So my Soon-To-Be called my Dad last night in America. Conversation went something like this;

"Hello?"
"Hi Allen, its Soon-To-Be"
"Oh, right, hello- (they have never met before) -This is unexpected".
"Well, I want to talk to you about something if thats ok?"
"Okaaay?"
"Well, your daughter and I have been discussing it and we would like to get married with your permission?"
"Oh, wow, oh. Thats a suprise, wow, oh congratulations, wow"
"Yeah"
"That is good news, congratulations, wow, of course, yes."
"It will be next year, and we will both be moving down to Oxford, I'm based down there".
"Wow, thats great. God, I'm at work"
"I thought you might be on your lunch?"
"Yes, I was just going, wow, congratulations, that is good news."
"Thank you."
"Well I guess I will see you in the summer then."
"Yep"
"Bye"
"Goodbye"

Or something like that, I wasn't there thank God. Would never have been able to get over the nerves if I was. Bless him, bless them both :)

Ex.Ex.Ex.Ex...tremely Annoying!

Why do ex's have to ruin your good mood? Why do they have to stick their beak in and wish you congratulations? Get over it and stay out my new family. Urrg! Just wait untill I have the ring, then you can plaster that fake smile of yours all over your cheap-ass two bit tramp face.

Its not so much that they want to say congrats, if they truly ment it then that would be fine. But they don't, they never do. If they did they mouth would not look like they just ate a lemon and their arse would not be clenched so tight I could crack a nut in it!

Ahhh... Rant over :)